Doubt
Why do I doubt? Lately, due to my academic mishaps, I have been mistrusting God. I have been questioning his guidance and goodness. How dare I? What a preposterous notion!! I know that, in comparison to Job, I have lost nothing and through the cross have gained more than Job had. It helps, however to compare our situations. Why did God take everything away from Job and allow him to suffer? Was it punishment? Was God trying to prove something? God has nothing to prove, and he himself declared Job as a man full of integrity. Job 1:3 "And the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, who fears God and turns away from evil? He still holds fast his integrity, although you incited me against him to destroy him without reason.” However, due to this display of God's might and complete power, Job learned incredible truths about God. Job 40:1-5 "And the Lord said to Job: 'Shall a faultfinder contend with the Almighty? He who argues with God, let him answer it.' Then Job answered the Lord and said: 'Behold, I am of small account; what shall I answer you? I lay my hand on my mouth. I have spoken once, and I will not answer; twice, but I will proceed no further.'" Perhaps through this fire I will learn more about God. I am, after all, constantly questing after knowledge of God and his mercy and the conviction of my sins.
Job 42:1 "Then Job answered the Lord and said: 'I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted. "Who is this that hides counsel without knowledge?" Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know. "Hear, and I will speak; I will question you, and you make it known to me." I had heard of you by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees you; therefore I despise myself, and repent in dust and ashes.'
Indeed, as my friend has described, the future is something to be smiled at, and my present circumstances shall neither affect my salvation or my destiny. How can my future be dark when it is filled with God's glory?
8 comments:
I just thought of this, but are you the person who helped with some o' the technical stuff at Praise His Name With Dancing's Christmas dance performance?
Yes, I did! I'm so grateful that I was allowed to do that. Do you dance?
Christy!!! Wow!! I bet you can figure out who I am...
Hmm. I remember some guy talking about this Petra album called "No Doubt"... Maybe he'll let you borrow it! :-P
The words you have said are true. How can the future be dark? I can't be. May God help you in living out those words. Easy to write, hard to realize. But that's what God uses living for--going from the brain to the heart.
P.S. My random letters were "rrzbh" for this comment. Maybe that should be Rebekah's new nickname!
hmm....rizzbah, I like it! It sounds Israelian. :-) Or how 'bout Riz. It reminds me of Rio and Brazil smashed together. What thinkest thou, O One Who Desires A Nickname?
I would LOVE to borrow your Petra album! We only have his Petra Praise tape.
NEVER stay up this late when you have to get up at 5:30!!! DUUUDE. Seriously. (I don't count. Work for me starts tomorrow at 11.)
Yeah, I was a dancer, and it was really fun! I was in Gloria and All Other Kings Bow Down. Really cool... And hey Rebekah!
Rizzbah reminds me of ribqah, which, I believe, is the "Hebrew version" of Rebekah, and is said something like rivkah.
it woiks. ::smile::
Christy, I'd love to actually meet you next time I go to Akron! Feel free to walk up and say hi...I can't connect your name to your face, but I'd still love to say hi!
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