16 January, 2010


I am very jealous of this guy. Also, I start doing tech at my "new" church tomorrow. Yay? We shall see how it goes :-) I'm very excited to see what I can learn from working with a new system and under the tutelage of Scott T.

10 January, 2010


Sometimes you don't even realize what you had until what might have been is no longer. "Could be" becomes "can not be." What do you take for granted?

I tend to take relationships for granted. This became glaringly apparent when I moved. I had the honor of witnessing two individuals unite in matrimony today, and was contemplating how that relationship would change every other relationship in their lives. Lifestyle changes have affected many of my friendships.

How grateful I am that my relationship with God will always be changing--for the better!

05 January, 2010

I Just Wanna Grow Up

Over the past few days, I've realized something. Growing up seems to involve growing hard and cold, jaded by the world's connivery. Did I just make up a word? Possibly...

I don't remember the first time I ever read I Corinthians 9, but I've held it up as a guideline for creating a Christian lifestyle. If I could describe my character, I'd use the word "flexible." I try to fit into most circumstances, befriend most people, for the chance I may be able to demonstrate the gospel to someone.

For though I am free from all, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win more of them. To the Jews I became as a Jew, in order to win Jews. To those under the law I became as one under the law (though not being myself under the law) that I might win those under the law. To those outside the law I became as one outside the law (not being outside the law of God but under the law of Christ) that I might win those outside the law. To the weak I became weak, that I might win the weak. I have become all things to all people, that by all means I might save some. I do it all for the sake of the gospel, that I may share with them in its blessings.
~I Corinthians 9:19-23
What is "character?" I decided today that character is defined by lines. Moral lines that delineate good from evil. Defensive lines that protect oneself from people of ill intent. Lines that show one's past. Lines leading to possible futures. These lines build on each other, forcing one's character into an increasingly rigid form. This process is certainly not harmful, but why do we have so many lines? Are certain lines necessary to be "grown up," "mature," or "attractive?" Should I constrain myself to appear more acceptable to others? Sometimes it seems I cannot remain "myself" while continuing to grow up in the world's eyes.